[equus]

I've spent so much of my life facing most things alone. I've had friends along the way but at the end of each day it's been me - just me.

I think it was hard to really grasp what having someone meant when there seemed to be so much that was hard, D was there for me too but - it was just different.

Last night after not getting the job, after days of being a pain in the butt with interview nerves, and through the interview realising how boxed in I am with my current work; last night it dawned on me that I wasn't facing all this alone, that D has been there all the way through with hugs and care.

I've been a bit glum today, that's ok - I picked myself up, but even glum I'm still not alone.

It's the strangest feeling, not a cure all but just having someone there while something hard happens.

I'm not on my own anymore, I haven't been for a long time but I can feel it now, I don't feel alone.