New and Quite Desperate

[JSB1685]

I have been going around the bender-drinking block for about four years now, and it's getting worse and worse. I keep trying to get and stay sober, keep failing. I usually have between 3 and 12 months sobriety between episodes, although this time have been really finding it hard to get up more than 5 or 6 days at a time.

Everything in my life is affected. My work, my kids (both my girls are living with their dad who won't let me see them more than once a week supervised), my health, my relationships. Sometimes I think that if it wasn't for my kids there would be no point. But I do have beautiful children so there IS a point. They need me, and I just want to be healthy and happy and available for them.

Day 1. Sick and tired. I hope some folks here may relate and be able to give me some hope.

Karen