I alwaysfind myself right back were i was .

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Sobriety , i know when i think of it an all it has to offer an bring i want an desire it more than anything but, for some reason i can not accomplish it for more than days some times months. These few days that i have been clean have been the longest but best day's i have had in awhile so as i sit an still crave for the monster an feel its chills an other symtoms i ask why" does it have to be this way " the way that i have an every reminder of what an how my addiction took that chill . Ive been asked to start a medication called , suboxen but to me its an replacement an that i do not want or to substitue . i want the me b4 the drugs an fake smile but i have came to know an realize with this time clean that she is gone but i can build a new me . i know that i can not do it alone but i dont have to do it with other drugs either .


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