Busy, excited, filled with anticipation..and..and..

[Hopefloats]

Hey everyone. This week is VERY busy for me. I have so many things to get done before my company shows up from SC and before MY BIG DAY NEXT TUESDAY! YIPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

For the past 18 months, I have gone through many emotions. I have grown in more ways than I thought possible. Geesh, just when we "think" our work is done. Of course we know that we are never really done. And I like that. Each day is another opportunity for me to learn more, love in a healthier way, and also to have another chance, seeing my child, alive and doing well.

I am not kidding myself in the least bit. I am not expecting perfection and I am not on that pink cloud. I am genuinely from my heart, SO GRATEFUL that God has given me and my daughter another chance. There were so many times I feared that knock on the door telling me that my daughter had OD'ed and I called that my living hell. And for those of you that have followed my story for the past almost 8 years, you know a whole lot of what I am talking about.

My new life of "One Day At A Time" really IS something I cherish. I could not do what I am doing if not for that. I could not do what I am doing if not for the genuine love and support of my friends here. So while I am here, for those of you that stood by me NO MATTER what, through all my ups and downs and crazy days, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Actually I don't have the adequate words to thank you all appropriately.

I want you all to know that I really am okay. I have a toolbox full of tools to use and I also have a treasure box filled with SO many good things.

I am choosing to put my focus on the positive. I have no control of my daughter or her life, but what I do want to think about is God's gifts to me.
And if something goes wrong I will deal with it then. What I won't do is live in "anticipation of the bad." I had so many days of doing that, and when I think of the good days lost, that saddens me.

As the leaves turn, so does a new day, and a new life..and that is said with so much hope in my heart and yes, even faith for the unknown.

I never gave up on my girl, even when I thought that I did.

You know my journey will continue here with all of you.
Bless your hearts...and bless my child.
I thank God that I made it this far, and so did she.......

Freedom will ring loudly next Tuesday October 12th. I am sure it will be something that to my child is as close to tangible as a feeling can be.
I feel so blessed.....

Thank you..