Logic vs. Emotion

[TexasGirl]

I've spoken more than once about how people's logical selves can think quite differently from their emotional selves. It's also been referred to as having the heart and head on the same page, especially in a "stay or go" situation. I've been thinking about it, and it seems this applies much more frequently than about whether to remain in or leave a bad relationship. Let me explain.

I've been in counseling now for 6 months, the majority of which has focused on me in reference to my husband. However, other times, we are looking at just me of course. More than once, my doc has hinted toward or asked about maybe if I felt unloveable. I always answer no, that there's no way I feel that way. I mean, I think I'm OK looking, I think I'm smart, I'm really nice and kind, so no way. My parents told me I was beautiful and smart and stuff. But tonight I started to think about my actions over the past several months. I've made some pretty poor choices, even in the wake of leaving my husband. I won't delve into those now, but let me just say, my choices don't represent that of a person who thinks she's great or deserves greatness. I think it's yet again a matter of my logical and emotional selves not being on the same page. Logically, sure I'm a catch. Emotionally, I must be stuck on something.

Is this really fixable? I'm tired of living life the way I'm living it. But I don't know how to change my mindset. It's overwhelming and frustrating.

I don't know what I need...I guess I'm just venting.