very emotional.

[namommy]

Hey, here I go again. I wish I could stop.

I went to the AA meeting tonite, and it was OK. Steve went with me. We were talking about the meeting and the way it felt, and how NA around here used to be that way. Blah, blah, blah.

I mentioned that it really hurt me that I wasn't going to be able to REALLY celebrate my 10 years in Aug. I can't go to an NA meeting and get a keytag on my anniversary, or speak at my homegroup.

I like the feel of the AA meetings, and the way I've been welcome, but I can't really celebrate my anniversary there either. Right now I've been keeping my mouth shut for the most part.

I've been crying ever since. Damn it! I never did anything to anyone around here to cause them harm, or to hurt them. I've served this area to the best of my ability since I've been clean. yet these a$$holes have to find some kind of crap to start on someone. And I'm hurt because the people who claim to be our friends, just sink back into the shadows and speculate quietly. They don't say "screw you" and stand up to the A's. It just really hurts.