Been awhile guys.

[irepou]

And there was a reason if I need to say more.

I want to get back on track, but I can't understand whats going on with me at the moment. In comparison, before when I was drinking I was able to get up, go to work and put a good days work in, come home and make dinner for the family and even do the dishes. I quit for a while and even when I was not drinking I seem to have troubles with work. our should I say the companies I choose to work for. I have never turned over so many jobs before in my life in such a short period of time. Right now I am depressed. I have a working interview tomorrow that I am physicked about. Just hope this one isn't like the others. If you want to see about bad choices google Arundel home connections and read what that company was doing. Hell I worked on most of those homes and didn't realize what the owners where doing to those people. my last one stiffed me for a weeks pay and left me hanging. what did I do in my life to deserve this stuff. And heres a I am sorry to Rainbowtwins. I am sorry I let you down. But you seem to be doing good and for that I am glad. I need to get hard headed again which I am trying to do. What is the cause of this. sober I choose wrong. drinking I choose wrong. so what is it. I don't have the answers this time. Thats not me. I would rather be drunk and have a handle on most things and take care of them then be like this:wtf: