Unexpected relationship side effects

[TaylorLeigh]

2 weeks ago today, I last drank. I haven't gone this long in over 7 years without one. One of my very good friends and I have been in contact nearly daily for 10 years. She definitely was one of the people I took my alcohol problems out on. She used to try to convince me to quit all of the time because I would get so rude, condescending and plain nasty to her "bringing her down." . When I told her I was quitting, she offered to be there... to help, whenever I needed her... Since, I have talked to her only 2 days. If I may be honest, I think she liked the drama of it all but I feel as though I have lost a VERY unexpected friend.

On the flip side, I always considered therapists a very weak move but my husband is getting so angry with me because I am "mopey" and "don't want to do anything and am acting depressed" We have always been VERY close and yesterday he yelled at me saying to to stop taking things out on him and that I used to be so much happier and that I shouldn't blame him because I have an alcohol problem (I never blamed him). He just likes the TV on 24/7 and for some reason, I have been VERY sensitive to noise. I tell him this and he flies off the handle. I understand it is an adjustment for everyone, but he has been also trying to get me to stop for so long I'm running out of options.

That said, the friend of mine I mentioned before is calling himself my AA sponsor. I don't know I'm sold on the program but giving HIM a shot... not meetings though he did rec I get a female sponsor in an ideal situation after discussing it with his AA sponsor.

I'm thinking about a therapist so I don't end up making my marriage miserable because of this. I didn't think I'd have such an adverse reaction. I just am having a hard time making that phone call.

Thanks for listening,
Taylor