Clarity

[WingsFreed]

I had some. was gonna write something about that two days ago in hopes it might help someone..but

For myself, I pull my brothers and sisters pain into myself, why? I don't know why, but then I guess it's because they are like me. No one on the boards here will understand that, and I don't expect anyone to. Yeah sorry I caved.

My clarity was something my sister pointed out to me the last time I talked to her on the phone about a younger brother who neither of us can help, who just called me again for the 4th time in a row.

I know I'm still in denial, my sister pointed that out the last time I seen her two months ago. She was here, we talked about this and that, she looked at my arm and asked me why it was shiny where I got burnt, I told her I didn't know why. Then for some strange reason I asked her if she really REALLY thought I was an alcoholic? She said YES, grabbed my hand told me to take a good look at my arm. I nodded yes. But then said I don't drink alone, you don't drink at all, so how would you know?

Gotta love denial eh?

I'm such a phoney here, I try to tell others what to do, I blah blah along the way and can't friggen help myself, I think I'm ok then some little thing sets me back.

I was doing so good so I thought, I hate the fact my sister had to move away, feel breathless the truth be told, I know she feels the same, I know I talked to her earlier. Us adoptees are different, and where I come from we were made to feel really different from everyone else.

I was doing so good, I sat at a table with my family, my younger downs brother, my little sis, mentally challenged who gasps to talk, my older brother, huge long story

sorry i drank, i cant be here while I drink, sorry gianna

I hate drama and dont want no part of it

(((((((Chy))))))))) please forgive me for always running, I will always remember you from SR....us good Catholic girls eh, I know for myself the Big Guys almost ran out of lightning bolts lol