Let's Celebrate...

[Muse]

...the announcement of MY NEW JOB! I am so happy and relieved right now. You have no idea how grateful I am.

Things were looking pretty grim for awhile. My plan B and C fell through the other day. The jobs I was relying on, as backup, disappeared a few days ago and my stomach dropped. I thought, what am I going to do? My last paycheck was $399.00 for two weeks and I couldn't keep on like that. My current job would not become full-time, which I don't understand. I am the only part-time staff member in the entire institution and it makes no sense to me. Unemployment was and is a complete and utter joke.

It took over a month for the decision to come through on my new job. I really was on the verge of panic. They called this morning. My gut told me they would. I just didn't know if it would be good or bad news. Well, thank God for hope and faith. I was so overcome with relief that I actually had tears in my eyes after I hung up the phone. I can't even remember that last time I was moved to tears.

I guess that comes from years of struggle and learning from my mistakes. It comes from knowing the true meaning of gratitude. I tell you, I wanted to give up on myself and my abilities, but something just wouldn't let me do it. Fear can have a strong hold on us, but faith can have a stronger one. I also have learned that you can't be over confident. Things don't always work out the way we want. The key is finding that middle ground which can be so difficult when trying to figure out the footwork.

I turn 50 in two weeks. I kept battling with the thought of hitting this milestone and not being able to support myself financially. That is not how imagined it to go. Any other time turning 50 would just be another day, not one filled with worry and wonder about what am I going to do. Thank goodness it can return to just being another day.

Big sighs of relief here. My heart is filled with gratitude. I just can't say it enough. On Friday the 13th to boot. This will be one Friday the 13th I won't forget in a long while...YIPPEE!

Thanks for all of the support. I know I doubt myself and let fear lead the way, at times. Once you have been so overwhelmed with debt, the thought of going back is to much. I have started making headway and the thought of going back, ouch! Thanks for reminding me that sobriety will move me along and bring me to where I need to be. That goes for all of us. Life brings us ups and downs. Today has proven that after much uncertainty stability will once again follow,not always at the pace I want it to be, but the lesson learned is priceless. The proof of the promises and being able to look back and turn a red cheek and laugh at all the whining and say...what were you worrying about? Things will work out. I have no control over what takes place in life, but hope and faith will give me something to cling to when all other options seem exhausted.

Again, proof that sobriety is a miracle. It has happened again and again since making the decision to change my life and get and stay sober. Thank God for a solution...