I would like thoughts and opinions please

[kathy]

I have an aunt who throughout the years was both verbally, mentally and sexually--really don't like to use that word, but she touched me a lot and those episodes happened 4-5 years ago when she came for Christmas. She also took money from her father then he blamed me for stealing from him and she never told me about the $30,000.00 she and her boyfriend took. I'm her only family.

For my sanity I cut off all communications with her about 2 years ago. I got an email 3 weeks ago with her asking for my SS number. I didn't respond and talked with hubby and son about it and one said ask why and the other (hubby) said to just delete the email. She's financially comfortable and while we were going thru hubby's medical problems, losing insurance, no money, she offered no support, financial or otherwise. And just whined about how expensive everything was. I didn't need to hear it.

She also went behind my back complaining to my hubby that he shouldn't allow me to smoke considering he had quit a few months before and was bad mouthing me about it. She had also quit about a year before. But very proud to say I will celebrate 3 years in September of being ciggie free even though I'd kill for one at times like this.

Back to the email. Before I could make a decision, she sent another email written in all CAPS... I didn't have time for this. We jumped to various conclusions. None good. But I did tell Hubby that he was to delete all emails that came from her and taught him how to block them. I didn't want to hear or see anything from her ever again. That it was my hope to go to my grave without ever hearing from her.

A couple of days later, she called. Her first question was why I didn't have anything to do with her anymore and I briefly told her because of her lack of support in our time of need and her touching me inappropriately and of course, I went brain dead because I didn't remind her about how she took the money from Pop and he used to call me calling me a GD liar when I told him I had no idea what he was talking about. She claims she offered verbal support, which I said I didn't remember and I will admit it might have been possible but at that time our lives were in such a turmoil. But she said she didn't remember ever touching me. I was also touched by her sister when I was a child.

She then said, I was calling to tell you something but now you'll have to go through the rest of your life not knowing what I had to say. I said "Goodbye *******" and hung up.

Just got an email from her but did not open. Subject line: Leukemia.

My depression is totally out of control. I don't know if I can handle this.

I'm ready to puke. Help please.