The hardest thing to do is usually the best

[@nother@ddict3902]

I find usually the hardest things in life to do are usually the best especially recovery even thou i ponder tht thought constantly .
i was sitttin here thinkin about all the friends that i have an the best of them are clean an never knew about my problem or did an never spoke of it but ,the ones that did know of it an had there fair share of dirt are the ones that in time really act shady . i remember the times i could tell tht someone anything an from all the thing i had been throu from infintry to a young adult , now the person acts funny they dont answer or text an act as if iam diffrent, but i was diffrent when i was using the times i made sure i left for . an when they get the old me/good me back its like its a new them . so the hardest thing to do is let go of tht bond of best friends ,siters an all because the relationship between u hurts now more than it helps. i have my thoughts of i should just explain or mke them tlk but thn, u think on all u have learned an realize everything happens for a reason even if the reason is not to clear. it hurts cause the bind with tht person was so strong an at one point they were the only person u felt understood u but for me tht one person, i have i have got to let go because somethin has came between us thou im sure it would fix its self in time . time is wat most ppl waste an the best thing i can do now is let go an god an do what he has in plan even if it kills me an i know i dont want tolet go i know its probally wats best cause the only thing im going to do is hurt myself more an when one door closes another shall open an i still have my friends tht i thought forgot about me or no longer cared tht are there with open arms no questions but support so sometimes letting go may be for the best even if it hurts like hell all i can do know is pray an hope for guidence