At years end 2006

[Chicago Patty]

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Tomorrow will be the day I have long waited for.
I have made lots of promises to myself.
Lots of, "if this doesn't happen by 12-31 then I am done."
I have set unrealistic expectations (if only in my mind)
to happen before midnight of 12-31.
For some reason in my mind 1-1-2006 is going to be spectacular.
Have I already set myself up for a fall?
Knowing how hard the last year has been,
I can only "assume" 2006 has to be better.
I suppose the truth to that will be seen.
I also know that I have the power to make it the best for me.
I can apply all that I have learnt from this year and make it better.
Still as much as I am glad to see it go,
I am glad that it happened.
A true sense of learning.
And yes I am afraid, but this year begins with me and not
with the ramifications of the last.....I am looking forward, not back....
and that's all I can do today.

Final note: Tonight I am attending a party for a friend I have known
20 years. He has struggled with drugs and alcohol for so long. He lost everything to it. He is moving to Florida, where he knows no one. He is determined to be clean and regain his life. This is his effort to escape the people, places and things he knows so well here. When I see him tonight I
will wish him well and somehow remind him that no matter where he goes, there he is......I pray for him......it is a bittersweet farewell :caf