My drinking is ruining my relationship

[laporsha24]

Hello,
my name is Porsha and I have a seriouse drinking problem. This weekend I went to a party with my boyfriend and I embarassed him in front of his family and friends. I was so drunk at the party that I started dancing with another man, and when it came time to leave I fell and hit my head on the concrete in front of everyone. The fall ended up knocking me out, and the next day I had to go to the hospital. I am scared that if I do not have the stregnth to fight my problem I am going to end up ruining my relationship, and killing myself. Right now it seems that my drinking problem is bigger than I am and to hard to overcome. My boyfriend is so mad at me right now that he is having a hard time supporting me in my decision to stop drinking, and he does not think that I really want help. If anyone has any advice to offer, I would love to hear from you.