I Checked My Mail

[WingsFreed]

Trying to process this now.

I filled out a form this past sept in hopes to find some information about biological family, it was suppose to take from six to eight weeks. Well today I got a surprise when I checked the mail, I had pretty much given up on getting a reply.

When I seen where it came from I knew what it was, a bit nervous, anxious, not really sure how to feel about it, not sure what would be in the envelope.

Anyway here I sit with papers in front of me, a copy I already have, my adoption papers, the other, a copy of statement of birth, which has her name on it, how old she was when she had me, where she lived. If she's still alive, she would be 74 today.

No record of the father, it says he wasn't named on my original birth registration, I don't know what that means.

I have something of hers now, I see her signature, I stare at it, I ran my finger over it

I wonder how she had to have felt at that time, or all of her life for that matter.

Wasn't sure what I was going to gain by sending in the form, maybe some form of closure. All I feel now is the familiar sadness, with a different twist to it.

Ah that's life eh? Just wanted to share that, there's really nothing to say.

Extra grateful today for my children

Thanks for listening.