My 15 year old Baby Girl

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I have been wanting to post a seriuos problem raging in my home for sum time now, the problem iz how do I go about 'spilling" my gutz without sounding like I am being selfish, so here goez, i have been dealing with with my own addictions for such a long period of time that I failed to see while I waz helping others get off drugz and alcohol(while still medicating myself)i didn't see my youngest daughter so full of the same rage i deal with on a daily basis,the circumstances to her situation have been spiraling out of control since october of last year. she has already experienced the meth scene,allowed to drink alcohol by the other parent in this, in another state, this last summer, that i allowed her to stay with,and also has aquired a seriuos marijauna problem.(the drinking was told to me by her in a intoxicated rage last month and had to involve the police department to help calm her down when i found her at an apartment drinking with underage kids also, she was very pissed at Me and very mean and hurtfull,after all she iz a teenager and is very angry with her parents from her past.)
We spent time in our family counseling a good part of three solid months and once we regained our relationship back to a "norm" for us aneewayz, we slacked offf on the weekly to monthly meetingz with our family therapist. then after the first part of this year we went back to her on a weekly basis, az of which we are now going twice a week individuals/and groups, plus i have been so busy with my own personal groups i attend which take up three dayz outta my week, not to mention i have also been seeing a doc for my psych medz and also for a health issue related to meth/alcohol use for so many yearz. so there haznt been enough time for me to "watch over' my daughters like a hawk az i normally do.
upon my last session with my daughters therapist ,which is also our family therapist, i discover through the therapist and my daughter (UA's drug tests)as well(not like i didnt see this coming) that she haz a seriuos drug problem,and @ 15 i am extremely worried, so we are talking about sending her away to a rehabilitation center quite awayz from my home, this is the hard part, i just get her back in our livez, and i do not want to see her go to some in-treatment facility that would require me to drive to only be able to see her on weekendz, so the agreement iz with her and I and her therapist to regain her life, get her on some social anixety medz,get her a solid routine and help her as much as we can before this gets any worse than it already iz.
meanwhile, i am at a loss for how to take all this, when it iz the evil in me that she saw for so many yearz and iz mearly following unto the same path for which i am running away from , well actually walking now, but at first last year it was run the heck outta the shadow of death. it haz been a Year and 100 days for me in my clean and sober lifestyle now, i have helped many a person get clean and sober, at least gave awesome advice when needed, then why iz it i cant get through to my own kin, they have seen first hand the devistation and the wrath that drugz can provoke and the destruction of alcohol in onez life
i so want the very best for my children, be them especially at this vulnerable age 15,18 and 20, and let me just say one more thing, that raising them and being alone and a Father who iz overbearing at times to "protect" i cannot fathom the thought of sending her "away", i feel she will despise me for helping her by pushing her off to someone else, other than her family,i so need intervention, but where i live iz a small coastal town and everything iz located in the city,there are no juvenile in-treatment facilitiez here for her, any help on this issue would be greatly apreciated, thanx for being my soundbaord, im at a loss and so down on myself right now its indescribable.