Step Two

[c'est la vie]

...at first, thinking that I "had" to depend on a HP to "save" me really pissed me off.
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(Today) instead of making me feel weak, I feel empowered, comforted and so glad not to be alone anymore. Even when no one else appears to be available when I need to vent, I know that my HP is always there to listen

This is great reading. I felt the exact same way. But I felt that I had to be able to understand and describe what "power greater than myself" was and exactly how it worked in my life. I couldn't do that and was getting tripped up in the comprehension department. I was trying to use words of human understanding to describe something that cannot be described. It was when I let go of trying to explain it that I accepted that it was there and it was OK. I could point out times that I felt it - primarily when I sat in the rooms of AA and when I talked on the phone to AA's.


I liked Gooch's description of "restore to sanity". I even pulled out the dictionary to help me accept my actions as "insane". When I found the term related to "irrational behavior" I knew that I had it, even when I wasn't drinking. The hoops I jumped through to make my drinking invisible to the naked eye or appear rational were entirely INSANE.