Ever had one of those days....

[purrdy]

when you thought you would 'shit' miricles...get everthing done that you had intended and then when the day is nearly done you have achieved next to nothing!....


I have been so busy lately with extra work and stuff I had the day off today to supposedly catch up on everything that needed doing...I marked my sons's Kumon papers, then I did 8 sheets of my own (arrgh to catch up after our break) I got on witha little paper work...this afternoon I spent some erm..'quality' time with E and then it was time to pick up W from school.....theres still so much to do but I feel so tired!

Oncew upon a time I would have spent countless hours worrying about what I should be doing and ended up doing nothing.....today I accept that what ever needs doing will get done...and hell if i dont want to cook tonight im not going to be hung drawn and quartered!

So I have spent some time just ..'being'....its so important to be able to spend some time in your own company without the endless committee in your head destroying your every piece of serenity and happiness.....

I had a chat with a dear freind the other day and we were talking about happiness...what is it?


well I think happiness is being able to do what you want to do when you want to do it.......there has to be balance too...ahhhh well just wanted to get that out...I have just had a lovely relaxing day!....doing what needed doing and the rest?...well itll be there tomorrow..its not going to go away..there is no rush...its all ok.....


My god the wonders of medication eh!...I have not felt this good in years! There is life after depression......