Step Five

[laurie6781]

You are entirely welcome Ken.

I think one of the first things I realized after doing my first 4th and 5th steps was that most of my anger and resentments (about 99%) came from my EXPECTATIONS of others.

Yep, they were not doing, what I wanted them to do, when I wanted them to do it to make me more comfortable, rofl.

Because I have been able to keep that in the forefront of my brain all these years, my resentments and anger outbursts are few and far between, but.........I'm not perfect yet, roflmao so they do still occur occassionaly.

To date, I have done 4 full 4th and 5th steps and am now working on a fifth 4th step as once again 'more has been revealed.'

Because of my extensive practicing of my alcoholism I had many gaps in my memory when I got here. Over the years most of it has returned, however, I still have no recollection of the last half of 1972 and about 3/4 of 1973, and it may never come back. Oh well.

After each 5th step I have taken, all were with my sponsor, I have felt a deep peace and serenity come over me. With the first one I took, the promise of "we will no longer regret the past, nor wish to shut the door on it" came true for me.

I do believe the 'enlightment' I gained after doing the 4th and 5th were a must for me to continue to grow and change on the Recovery Road.

Ken, I have followed your journey since you first posted on SR and you are one of the blessings of my own sobriety. I absolutely LOVE watching and listening to the newcomers grow and change. It is such a miracle every time it happens.

Chy, well..............................what can I say girl? You are really something!!!!! I have no doubt that had you continued the path you were on you would have ended up just like me, lol, but somehow HP got through to you much sooner. For that I will be eternally greatful.........................for you see HP blessed me and put another dear friend in my life. Thank you Chy for getting and staying sober.

Love and hugs,