Hello Old Friend

[Pattee]

Hello old friend" Iv'e come to visit once again. I live to see you suffer: physically, spiritual, and socially. I want to make you restless so you can never relax... I want you to be jumpy, nervious and anxious. I want to make you agitated and irritable so everything; and everybody makes you uncomfortable. I want you to be confused and depressed so you cant think clearly or positively. I want you to hate everything, and everybody, including your self. I want you to feel guily and remorsefull for the things you have done in the past that you'll never be able to let go. I want to make you angry and hatefull toward the world for the way it is, and the way you are. I want you to be decitfull and untrustworthy, and to manipulate and con as manny people for no reason at all. I want you to wake up durring all hours of the night and scream for me. You know you cant sleep without me. I'm even in your dreams... I want to be the first thing you think of when you wakeup in the morning, and the last thing you touch before you go to sleep if you can. I would rather kill you. But i'll be happy enough to put you back in the hospital, anmother insitution or jail. But you know, I'll stil be waiting for you when you get out. I love to watch you go slowly insane. I love to see all the physical damage that i'm causing you. I cant help but sneer and chuckle when you shiver and shake... when you freeze and sweat at the same time. When you wake with the sheets soaking wet... It's amuseing to watch... Its amazing how much destruction i can do on your internal organs while at the same time i work on your brain, destroying it bit, by bit............... I deeply appreciate how much you have sacrificed for me; the countless jobs; all the fine friends that you deeply cared for and you gave up for me; and whats more, for the ones you turned against yourself because of you inexcusable actions. For these, I am even more grateful. But especially for your loved ones, your family, the most important people in the world to you- you even threw then away for me. I cannot express in words the gratitude i have for the loyalty and respect you have for me. But do not despair, my friend, for on me you can always depend!!! For after you have lost aqll these things, you still depend on me to take even more. You can depend on me to keep you in a living hell; to keep your mind, body, and soul; for i will not be sastisfied until your dead... So hello old friend, i'm the Rat... my name is Addiction".............. this was given to me long ago by a recently departed friend...................... agw & tol, ... Pattee

[Done-With-It!]

Thank you ((((Pattee)))) that was so fast!!

[Pattee]

wad'a ya expect, lol.....lifes short enough............ Wink...(....)

[Rocketman]

Thanks Patee for the eye opener

[Velvet]

Thanks. I printed that out for my kids.

[fianna]

Great Post Pattee!
I had this one many years ago & cannot find it.
It is a good daily read for me to stay on track!

[Hope4life]

Thank you! I am going to hang on to this and read it often. This is something to keep in mind and it is so true.

[Hopefloats]

Hey Pattee...this is the sad, horrible, but honest truth.

Powerful words....thank you....
Blessings..
Hopefloats

[Pattee]

that friend came back again... my # 1 sponsee's lady... last weekend, od'd. he's do'n well... another eye opener...


Damm!


xxoo, pattee

[yeahme]

Thanks for this post!! How true, it is! I printed it and will keep it as a reminder. Really hit home with this one, especially to wake up screaming for it! :Angels_teu08:

[Pattee]

yeahme .. do with it what you will...

pass it on ...

just an update for you... the person that gave it to me in the first place, the love of my life, we were to get married ... Trish (Miracal) died on march 31st ...

her old friend came back to visit, one last time...

all good wishes to you, and give only love ... pattee

[Chy]

(((Pattee)) Always gives me chill bumps.

[yeahme]

That brings this passage even more to life! So sorry for your loss.

[Jazzman]

I'm saving this. I wish I could give this to someone I know and have it hit home for good.

[Pattee]

jazzman, you can give it to them, its up to them if it hits home or not...

i hope it does... thanks all for careing ... i'm ok.

i'm going through all of this again with my roomy, and i might add, worse, and faster then with trish...

agw & gol, ................... pattee

[Gabe]

Patrick, big love and light headed your way from me.
It's not fair for you to be going through the same thing all over again.

[Pattee]

gabe, fair?, not fair? ... yep, it is what it is tho...

the upside, i have come to know a realy great person...

the evil sister Nancy... she's not so evil afterall, in fact, shes wonderfull...

Hmmm! destiny? ... maybe trish had it plan'd all along... :Angels_teu08:

thanks for careing gabe.

agw & gol, .............................. pattee

[Felix...]

Darlin am i soooo happy to see you here ...............

Much love n Friendship my dear friend,....I look forward to cathching up with you here...!

I would like to use this as more of an escape from the serious reality of Recovery as my life in ruled by it at the mo...!

So seeing my Buster friend ,........is Great .......

[Pattee]

felix,... A .... what a way hip surprise to find you here this mor'n lady... yea, this is my retreat also... not in here too much, just to dang cloged up elseware... felix, at least its not all my head or (_JAB_) lol! ... spread your love and humor around here... get to know that Hope lady, shes awesome... hiya HF...

see felix, this is where the rat started... take that you dirty rat...

much love to you Arura big red lips, kiss kiss!lol!

good wishes to all, and of course, give only love... xxoo, Zip aka, JA Buster

ps, remember, we cant give that rat the