fear

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Fear seems to be creeping up all over the place and taking over my life right now. Husband left today to go to Europe for 10 days. He tried to get out of it b/c I'm so close to the end of my pregnancy but his boss was a jerk about it. I still have a month from tomorrow to go so it should be ok. I am just feeling anxious about him being gone and being alone. My sponsor says its just a lesson in learning to ask for help if/when I need it. I'm really enjoying not working and staying home with Tess for the most part but at times am feeling really lonely. I feel like I have all four of the HALT going on at the same time all the time haha. I'm scared of crashing and burning after the baby is born - like I did after I had tessa. I'm trying to make a plan for that - have people to help so I can get to meetings, or supports that are willing to come visit me. I'm just trying to find a way to manage it all and not let it rule my day.