The story of me

[Buckbeak]

Im not sure if this is the right place to post this so apologies if its not. I have made a decision to help myself and me posting this is the first step in that decision. Im an alcoholic............ I still find it hard to accept that but there it is. I definatley am! I started drinking about 10 years ago - Never to any particular excess. A bottle of wine, a few beers. Never crazy amounts of spirits. I used to tell myself that I cant have a drinking problem because I never felt the need to drink spirits. Just wine. Unfortunatley for me my weakness for the vino grew in quite alarming proportions. Soon I was knocking back 2 bottles a night.

I seemed to always manage it - You know, I held down a steady job, I got married and have a happy healthy relationship with my wife - whom I love dearly. She worries about me and she has brought it up on a number of occasions. My reaction is either I get quite angry or I get depressed. She wants me to stop. I want me to stop. I guess I should go and see a GP and get some advice. Im not really into the AA thing. I know that sounds awful bearing on mind what ive just confessed but the religion part of it puts me off. Me posting this here seems a bit like im hiding. Im sure there is no sure fire way im going to deal with this. I guess I will take everyday as it comes. I was reading about some guy in a another part of this forum that just reached 6 months of sobriety and he said that excercise helped him so Im going to go for that too. I know I can do it - My wife supports me.

Wow I really feel better for saying all that. Let the recovery begin