ugh, wth

[BioXtasy]

▼▲so..lately ive been feeling really i dunno shit i never could explain feelings or emotions to well but damn man i just get this overwhelming urge to just cut again, and ive ignored the hell out of it an still am ignoring it but its there and god damn its a bish. what triggered this? hell if i know it started like.. hmm a week ago. i think it was kinda b/s to run outta prozac and stop doing meth and then! i lost my weed which was ALOT and then im going clean anyway so i dun care about either or any of um for that matter.

ugh i can't sleep right anymore im not thinking right anymore my shits all screwed up its so damn weird to have this feeling wash over my body. talk about some shitty feelings being sober blows.


oh an in other news on Monday ima finally go see whats up wit adult school. 4sure ill be going to school by next monday! unless theres somethin on there side holdin me back from going that soon.

gosh though..right now if i had a razor ooo..the things id do. damn just thinking about it drives me alil nuts.

**** man i could call this pain rather then shitty depression. then i have to act like im on one in front of everyone or else ill be all damn depressed an unenergetic. its like work keepin that up esp when inside i feel so down in the dumps, but not so much of a i wanna die just a kinda..**** i need to itch but i can't for whatever reason but if i do itch it'll go away but ill end up messing up w/e the reason was i can't itch. like a healing cut it'll itch but not for long,
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Wow that has to be the most useless shit ive typed in like 4years
as a matter uh fact that last lil part i really don't know what the hell i was even trying to say..and i really don't wanna reread it and then end up rewriting it all then doing the same thing like 5times over THEN finally wondering..why am i wasting so much time doing this...PRESS SUBMIT FOR GODS SAKE!!!!!!▼▲