Contradiction I can't resolve - help

[morning_glory]

Reading back a bit, I remembered how I tried so hard to deal with my control issues-to figure them out, fix them, etc,etc. About a year ago, I learned that trust issues cannot be resolved without basic trust and that's where trusting the HP is critical.

I was willing to give some areas of my life to God, but not everything, and was willing to listen to Him...when I wanted to, but the concept of obedience to Him felt like anathema because I had massive trust issues and the adults I had to be obedient to as a child had abused me. What a revelation that was. I was way more broken than I thought and God helped me look at it without self attack. I can't tell you how many times He calmed the storms in my heart and soul (just last night even). Yes, Hp will push you, challenge you, not rescue you and sometimes ill just seem to not be there (dark night of the soul), but God is always faithful, never changes, never lies. Accepting that He loved me was overwhelming. He came to me and comforted me in my weakest, my most wretched states and consoled me. He gives us so much, but I can go on about that in the spiritual forum ; )

Anyway, whether atheist, Jewish, generic HP, profoundly religious...can we agree that HP is a trusted, loving and benevolent source?