My meeting last night...

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The meeting I went to last night was great. It was my first step meeting and I really liked the format.

I have been going mostly to beginners meetings so I can blend in and not share. I'm not good with sharing at meetings yet. It has always scared me and I'm not a great sharer of feelings to begin with. I'm getting better at it and it is on my next fear inventory and thankfully I have a tool to work on it that I am becoming more comfortable with.

We read from the 12 and 12 and it was about step 2. We went around tables and each person read a paragraph. I am counting people, scared to death that I'd have to read. The reading literally stopped one person before me. In my mind I was like "yeah baby dodged that one, HA!"

So then the lead shared for awhile. I was blissfully enjoying where he was at with the step. Then he said the most horrifying thing I could hear. "Now we are going to pick up with the person we left off with (read ME!!!) and share where we are with the step." I mean there were about 30 people there. What are the odds that I picked the seat to share first.

So I did. My voice cracked, heart pounded, I cried a little and almost puked.

It

was

awesome!

Really awesome and I felt so much better afterwards.


"Is that odd or is that God" means a little more to me today.