Thank You All!

[LuckyV2]

I posted this other places a few days ago. I know that there are those here at The Sober Village that Struggle like myself with staying sober. I want you all to know as well as a reminder to myself that if we DON'T DRINK OR USE we have a Chance if we USE WE DO LOOSE! So here is what I posted.

I want to thank each of you for your support! If I didn't have you all I wouldn't be sober and clean today.

2 months ago I took myself off of pot and my nut meds. Worse withdraw I have ever experienced and I have had a lot of bad ones.

What happen?

Well I really can't post it here in open forums. I will tell you that it was terrible. I knew April 7th that I could never use safely again. I knew than and there that I had to do whatever I had to in order to remain abstinent. Don't matter what my attitude is or was, I had to stay clean through it all, which I have Just for today, One day at a time.

It hasn't been easy. I am taking more time on working the program and learning to live life this time. I have a nasty attitude, I am hoping it will improve in time, If I have that much time left.

2 1/2 years ago February in 2008 I was only given a year to live. Well I've lived and yeah I still smoke. Back than I feel coming home. Had home nurses which wasn't too bad than I fell at home. I bummed up my left knee. I've been on pain meds since. Doc said I could never be operated on again. Well it is gotten bad. I now wear a knee brace and have a cane along with the meds but it isn't working anymore.

Doc says I will probably have to have surgery if I can't get it under control with the knee brace and cane. The pain is there all the time. I still feel my knee popping just from moving my toes So Monday I have my appointment. He will probably have a MRI done than. I am not sure but I've noticed the color of my skin getting patches of a brown, green color here the last week. I've been really depressed over this, but....I"VE remained CLEAN!

So If a JUNKIE like me can do this deal with all these things...You can keep clean also.

Love ya

Vic


DISEASE vs FREEDOM

I once had a friend who treated me right
She said that she loved me but we would fight

At first we had a very special thing
With laughter, love, and a diamond ring

She made me feel as if I was a man
Then she looked again and she ran

She ran her blood into my vain
She started to take away all my pain

But when after awhile she would leave
I would have too pull up my sleeve

To find her once again in me
But she wouldn’t set me free

She took control of the life that we had
The blood thickened and turned bad

Why did you turn on me so much
You were with me dinner, breakfast, and lunch

Although you would be my main course
You became my only source

Chrystal don’t you still love me a little bit
Why did you have to make me feel like sh*t

Did you come to destroy my life
You took away my children and my wife

You promised that we would never end
You said my life would be only love send

But yet you turned you back on me
You brought heartache and cut down my tree

You said that I was your only one
But yet your trickery took my son

You said that no matter what would be
That you would always be good to me

Now you have me with heart and soul
You keep me on the miserable roll

Why can’t you just go your way
And leave this world not tomorrow but today

Why did you turn so very bad
At first you made me so very glad

Can’t you see how you have lied to him
You have kept them living in sin

You have taken a lot of things
So now I must take back that diamond ring

I have the power through my LORD today
To put you to rest and make you lay

But yet I hear your voice inside
Saying Babe Babe just one more ride

But yet one is too many and a thousand in never enough
You always did like playing rough

So now I have a choice to make
I will throw the ring into the lake

The lake of death is in your life
No longer will I have you as wife

So thanks for the adventure down this lane
I hope to God that you never rain

For now you know how very real it feels
That love like that will actually kill

So now you have lost you power over me
For today my Lord has set me free

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victor
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