I know better.....but.....

[yeahme]

As some of you know I"m going through rough times with work. Having to find a new job due to unknown circumstances other than a line of bs that my position is no longer.

I have a serious craving lately. Not for my DOC, I can keep it under control since I have no access to it. But I really want to get high. I would love to just roll up a big fat joint and smoke until I can't think straight or maybe not think at all!

I know better! If I was to give in I'd get the dream job call on Monday or the day after I smoked and have to take a drug test thus ruining lots of opportunities for myself. But man the cravings today are unreal! I have depression knocking on the door and mary jane knocking at the other. On my way to an anxiety attack and all my normal coping skills aren't working! OMG! I know better........but.........